Easy to love me - Rylo

In the Quarters post I just did , I said I’m hard to love . yeah kind of . Lol

I never made it hard , it’s just kind of hard to buy in to the dreams I have bought into . Ya know?

its tangible for a woman to see a man and meet a man , and he says “imma nurse “ Lol

that job is one that is one that I know a woman loves because it’s secure asf . but when I tell a woman “I am a party promoting , author. “ it doesn’t really make them feel like I can end up buying them Birkens and GLE 63s ya know ? And I get that because every woman‘s dream is a princess Lol. But my thing is that women subscribe to a dream of being a princess but when I tell them that I am on a journey to change the way that We think as black men, then I think it just discourages them . Because maybe that just seems super far fetched to make black men see the errors of Black capitalism , and how we are perpetuating and perpetrating our own demise. taking half of a nigga anything and with holding the information and the exposition that can very well make that man self sustainable is subjugation and oppression. How do we become the same people we love to hate ? This what makes me think that maybe this may be in our nature because uhh isn’t that how we became enslaved ? i wanna put the brakes on that shit , and ya know the way I have thought about doing it may be just so amazing it could work! but it’s nothing someone would like to wait around for to see . I don’t think someone will even love me enough to make it they mission to encourage me to do it. And that’s why I love me enough for my self . I love my child enough for myself . I wanna win for myself . Ive helped countless people’s score touchdowns but it’s time I throw my self some touch downs . I ain’t hard to love . I’m just not as flashy as the others . I ain’t anxious to be accepted or like by any one but myself and God. Ive sent all the thank yous and I love yous out that I can send . A nigga just wanna see if I’m just as amazing as I say I am. And the thing is I AM. i ain’t hard to love . But I ain’t easy either . Just this way I think just makes me unattractive. and that’s totally okay. I mean the Way I think maybe just has me on a whole nother wave ? Lol maybe I ain’t supposed to be love , In love, married or any of that? Maybe I’m supposed to just have Ava , get some paper , and just be a rich dad bachelor with some crazy outta this world understanding of my role during sex ? By sex I mean intercourses. My intercourses are intimate . By sex I mean intimacy . I can literally Jack my dick with a woman . As fucked up as that sounds . You can . But I can’t cheat intimacy . I can’t cheat sharing my dreams with you and I can’t minimize my amazing self for the sake of just having somebody. A bulk of my intimacy comes from my pride … as toxic as that is because imma always feel tried by the things a nigga should be feeling tried for. I ain’t with nobody thinking I’m second place to anybody. Because if it was cameras anywhere in any of these spaces, it’s clear that I’m if I’m not the wisest . I am the most righteous . And the most adaptable to any situation , and the most level headed . Imagine me adding discipline and richest to that line up ? Now sprinkle the kindest , insert the most sharing and caring . What makes me hard to love ? When it’s on paper like a scouting report I would be a 94 rated guy on any game of man, with an A+ potential . because hello I ain’t even done nothing at all or showed y’all no hand at all. Just took my time collected my hand , studied my field , took my influencers and now we are in the synthesizing a new world to compensate my love for mankind .