Exhausted .

Well I came here to discuss H.E.R amazing song Exhausted . Man this song just shut me down for the night . To have my feelings articulated so well man it’s crazy . if you never heard the song I just advise y’all to spin it but ya know it was deep asf and it literally broke me up into pieces tonight . if i give you this chance you better save it . How can’t I get some appreciation . Man that’s so freaking deep. Because when do people realized they fumbled with you? i won’t dig too deep into that question . Because people don’t realize it until it’s too freaking late . Why don’t my effort be appreciated and what’s wild is . I’m really not that bad of a guy. I know y’all read how poetic my books are and how great with words I am in my blog posts . Do y’all really think I can’t do what it takes to just … fuck sumn Lol. That ain’t what I’m here for . I’m a man . Who is going to responsible for me ?? Like making sure I am okay ? Not paying my bills or any of that . Imma man. But who gone make sure a nigga gets to freaking love? Who gone take the task of loving a nigga that’s easy to love? I am grace personified . I ain’t a tyrant like these other men. I ain’t negligent with my feelings or hasty with my actions . I could just be the rudest and meanest ever, but I don’t move like that. I appreciate people . I don’t keep people out of my life for wronging me or superficials . I think I’m moving closer to my God stages . Because imagine how Jesus felt riding for niggas who he knew was gone cross him? Hanging and saving all the sinners who probably thought this man was all cap the entire time . But after he died on the cross was going around telling the world how much they fucked with Jesus and how good he was , just for him to rise back up out of the tomb and call cap on niggas . Or all the women Jesus told he was the greatest and wanted to love , but they just deferred because they ain’t Believe his word . I’m feeling like that because . Ya know a Nigga putting down some dope ass shit . Life saving and changing . But man . I just don’t believe that this process is supposed to keep going like this . when do I get a say? like damn when do I get to say I wanna love you for the rest of time and it actually happens . When am I going to not have to be in some sort of freaking exhibitions of games for women? a nigga just finished man . I’ve held out for as long as I really could for it but I’m just going to let the world turn me cold and see the results of moving with logic . I been moving with straight emotions and I think I’ve seen what black women go through to certain extent . Not the violence , but the exploitation , the lies , the toying with , you know the shit men do our Queens . Some queens manage to play the role and damage me too .