Sick and tired !

Warning. This ain’t gone be A positive reflection. This just gone be raw , super raw and super transparent .

First let me just say , beautiful women will literally break you Lol. My dad taught me and my brother this at a young age and this man was so fucking right . The aesthetically pleasing women , are the biggest hoes . Sorry not sorry . And they ain’t a hoe for their sexual nature . i ain’t immature to do that. They are super manipulative and I can see why these men go crazy , and lash out and hurt women. Because the shit women pull should be against the law . If you break up with a nigga , you don’t get to discuss what he do as a single man. You don’t get to say I knew this wouldn’t work , and you don’t get to say said man is anything due to you ended it prematurely. You also don’t get to use his actions to justify for yours because you created the space for the uncertainty. this spill not gender biased either. Niggas need to live and move on this same code too but I’m gone speak from my micro lens and i aint gay . So you women Lol.

People also can’t be so cocky . Just because you ain’t see an act happen don’t mean it ain’t happen at all, and it doesn’t mean the person doing the act ain’t capable of making that act happen . A person told me today I ain’t have enough patience for her , which is wild because this was my first relationship since the 10th grade Lol so yeah sit down for this . She says I ain’t have enough patience for her . Some times I think we confuse Patience with the amount of bullshit we supposed to accept . and if thats the defining of the terms , then for sure I ain’t patient at all. I have to go to sleep with my self every night . And me going to sleep with any disrespect, lame shit tied to my name . Keeps me up all night in a rage . A silent rage that eats me up inside . So I don’t go for no sucker shit . I hate being tried . Like a fucking lame. If I call

you and you up fucking and sucking dick . Why wouldn’t you just lie and hide it ? Why would you deny the call then text me ? Like that’s the ultimate sign of disrespect. Not that you owe me Anything, but this is what is ruining the world. people are lacking the common decency to one another . Which is fine . Lol me I just go with the flow . Yeah shit bums me out that I put thots on pedestals but I knew they was thots and gave em the benefit of the doubt . I have nobody to be upset with But myself . Silly of me to think that I could have you all to my self . Denise williams said I know I shouldn’t be looking for love . And I know I shouldn’t be looking for it either . So a nigga done. It’s crazy in a week span . All my old flings popped up out of no where and EVERY ONE OF THEM DISAPPOINTED . In such a short amount of time we’ll not all of em we got one more old

stone to turn over . But ya know I feel

like I know how that’s going to go too. i never am wrong about anything the shit literally scares me . I hate where my life at right now but I love where it’s going . if we at the rock bottom it’s only way to go right ? up? I hope so . Lol I just wanna be okay first though . I ain’t okay at all though man. I feel like I ain’t got no loyalty in my life . From no points or people ever . Which is cool ion need it . I just don’t want nobody to kick it like I switched up when I kick the Hollywood shit because I got permanent scars that none of yall will see. Of trusting people , confiding in people , riding for people and the shit just back firing in a nigga face time and time again. And ya know fuck it . A nigga gone go up with or without whoever .